I have been awake for almost 3 hrs now, waiting outside the doors. I see the door opening & run towards it, & finally manage to get to the bed. I take a big leap & jump on to the bed. There I see, him still asleep in his deep lumber, & I do what we know best, & that is to give love. At times , I feel annoyed that he doesn’t understand me, and tries to avoid me. Then he makes some loud noise, & Chottu, the Domestic help of the house comes, and takes me out of the room. I lie down on the floor with my eyes fixed on the door.
I have been fed in the morning, so don’t feel hungry now. With nothing much to do, I also drift away to my lonely sleep. Then there is some noise, I am half awake, I see the father coming in, from his routine walk. I have never been able to understand his feelings towards me, completely. I know he cares for me, & tries & half mumble something to me & gestures with his hands. I feel he’s calling me, but I know, he also cant express himself well. When I had just come to there house, I tried to know him, but he sounded too scared or too reserved. Till date, he has never even held me once. But I know he cares for me, & cares for everyone in this house. He is the Father after all.
I drift to my sleep again, this time I am just outside the door of the room. & then finally the door opens & he walks out . I come abound with excitement, joy , love…..He then bends down & picks me up. He kisses me on my small black mouth, caresses my body, my head. He is now talking to me ….. He say “”aaaannnnnniiiieeeeeooooo heeyyyyoooo goluuuuu gollluuuuu…..bakfast khayaaa, meya golluuuu babiieeee “.. He knows that I understand what he’s trying to say. He asks me, how am I, if I had my breakfast…..
This is what makes me the happiest. I feel ecstatic, I feel absolutely thrilled. I completely forget, that I have been waiting for him, for the last 4-5 hours, outside his room.I completely forget, that for so many days, I am alone in the house for most part of the day. I completely forget, that these hours of waiting are the most depressing for me, even though I am surrounded by people in the house, the father, the Chottu, the mother, but still I feel lonely without him. They are all nice, & I now they all care for me, but I think, I have a greater need for love than all of them. I see, that even at times the entire family is together, they don’t sit very closely to each other. They have different gadgets that keep them occupied, when they return from work. I see them using the T.V, their laptops, Video games, they have every thing. Yet I feel, they are not satisfied. Many a times, he is sitting depressed, feeling sad about something, & when I go up to him, he does cuddle me, but I can sense that he is feeling sad, & that makes me sad as well. I m sure, he would never figure it out. But I don’t need all these material things, neither their devices, nor gadgets. All I need is his love, affection & probably a lot of attention as well. In that way, I am little different from him. He needs little time alone for himself. I how ever don’t want to be alone at any time, I want to be loved, cuddled every time.
Every morning I see the father, the brother & him, leaving early & then they come back late in the night. They all look very tired when they come, & because of that also, I think they can’t give me enough time, but he always picks me up when he comes back, and gives his love & affection to me. I don’t know where they go out the whole day, but I know it must be something important, that’s why they cant even spend much time together. But I feel very sad when they leave, even though the mother & chottu, are there, but they become too occupied in their work, and hardly get to spend time with me. & I am left alone in my wait for the evening to come or any other holiday.
Today, I think, is the holiday. Today He spends a lot more time with me today. He takes me out to the doctor. Today he also personally feeds me, and then puts me on his belly, where I fall to a very cosy sleep. In the evening he takes me out in his car. I love putting my head out of the car window. It looks like a different world. I also can see some lucky ones like me who also are enjoying this holiday with their families, & the also have their heads hanging out of the car windows. I also see some unlucky ones, on the road side, being left in such a bad condition. I cringe for them, but at the same time I feel very privileged on being with him. That’s when I go to his lap, and lick his face. That’s my way of saying Thank you, for everything.
I keep on licking him. I know he understands that I am trying to show my love to him, but I don’t think he understands, what I m saying :::
I know you may not be able to give me a lot of time, but whatever time & love uve given me, it’s the greatest gift in my life. I am lucky to have born in this form. I laugh when I see most humans get frustrated & say, It’s a dogs Life, because if this is a dogs life then I am very happy to live this life with him. He is my Master & he is the reason, I’ve been given this life.
I have been fed in the morning, so don’t feel hungry now. With nothing much to do, I also drift away to my lonely sleep. Then there is some noise, I am half awake, I see the father coming in, from his routine walk. I have never been able to understand his feelings towards me, completely. I know he cares for me, & tries & half mumble something to me & gestures with his hands. I feel he’s calling me, but I know, he also cant express himself well. When I had just come to there house, I tried to know him, but he sounded too scared or too reserved. Till date, he has never even held me once. But I know he cares for me, & cares for everyone in this house. He is the Father after all.
I drift to my sleep again, this time I am just outside the door of the room. & then finally the door opens & he walks out . I come abound with excitement, joy , love…..He then bends down & picks me up. He kisses me on my small black mouth, caresses my body, my head. He is now talking to me ….. He say “”aaaannnnnniiiieeeeeooooo heeyyyyoooo goluuuuu gollluuuuu…..bakfast khayaaa, meya golluuuu babiieeee “.. He knows that I understand what he’s trying to say. He asks me, how am I, if I had my breakfast…..
This is what makes me the happiest. I feel ecstatic, I feel absolutely thrilled. I completely forget, that I have been waiting for him, for the last 4-5 hours, outside his room.I completely forget, that for so many days, I am alone in the house for most part of the day. I completely forget, that these hours of waiting are the most depressing for me, even though I am surrounded by people in the house, the father, the Chottu, the mother, but still I feel lonely without him. They are all nice, & I now they all care for me, but I think, I have a greater need for love than all of them. I see, that even at times the entire family is together, they don’t sit very closely to each other. They have different gadgets that keep them occupied, when they return from work. I see them using the T.V, their laptops, Video games, they have every thing. Yet I feel, they are not satisfied. Many a times, he is sitting depressed, feeling sad about something, & when I go up to him, he does cuddle me, but I can sense that he is feeling sad, & that makes me sad as well. I m sure, he would never figure it out. But I don’t need all these material things, neither their devices, nor gadgets. All I need is his love, affection & probably a lot of attention as well. In that way, I am little different from him. He needs little time alone for himself. I how ever don’t want to be alone at any time, I want to be loved, cuddled every time.
Every morning I see the father, the brother & him, leaving early & then they come back late in the night. They all look very tired when they come, & because of that also, I think they can’t give me enough time, but he always picks me up when he comes back, and gives his love & affection to me. I don’t know where they go out the whole day, but I know it must be something important, that’s why they cant even spend much time together. But I feel very sad when they leave, even though the mother & chottu, are there, but they become too occupied in their work, and hardly get to spend time with me. & I am left alone in my wait for the evening to come or any other holiday.
Today, I think, is the holiday. Today He spends a lot more time with me today. He takes me out to the doctor. Today he also personally feeds me, and then puts me on his belly, where I fall to a very cosy sleep. In the evening he takes me out in his car. I love putting my head out of the car window. It looks like a different world. I also can see some lucky ones like me who also are enjoying this holiday with their families, & the also have their heads hanging out of the car windows. I also see some unlucky ones, on the road side, being left in such a bad condition. I cringe for them, but at the same time I feel very privileged on being with him. That’s when I go to his lap, and lick his face. That’s my way of saying Thank you, for everything.
I keep on licking him. I know he understands that I am trying to show my love to him, but I don’t think he understands, what I m saying :::
I know you may not be able to give me a lot of time, but whatever time & love uve given me, it’s the greatest gift in my life. I am lucky to have born in this form. I laugh when I see most humans get frustrated & say, It’s a dogs Life, because if this is a dogs life then I am very happy to live this life with him. He is my Master & he is the reason, I’ve been given this life.
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